How I longed for this night…

When my breath touched your bare neck
And I supported your swelled flesh
You quivered like a leaf
I shuddered with delight
You made me believe
How I longed for this night

Your tantalizing fingers made me swirl
Erotic images filled my world
You unravelled the mystery
Flames were in my eyes
You made me believe
How I longed for this night

You burned my nerves from head to toe
Flare of responses danced so raw
You explored in luxury
Stripping love in light
You made me believe
How I longed for this night

A gleam of pleasure reigned so supreme
To control the need is a task of might
aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh
You made me believe
How I longed for this night
You made me believe
How I longed for this night

MY & ME!!

I used to be completely different,
Just few day's back, just few day's...

No worries for livings,
As i knew, at the end of the day,
Someone would be waiting,
At the door of my house,
Just to hear my voice,
And to have a glance at me,
With her starry eyes,

I could see the love, in her eyes,
I could feel the care, every time i go out,
Jump from stairs, fly the kites,
Face a cricket ball, with my bat,
Run before the colorful butterflies,

I always find someone near me,
When I feel scared,
I always find a lap for my head,
I always felt secure,
When she’s around me,

But now I am grown up,
I am strong enough,
So what if she does everything for me,
So what if she never ate anything,
Before me,
So what if she is weak now,
So what if she needs my shoulder,
So what if she still loves me,

I have my own responsibilities,
I have my own career,
Now everything for me is -
MY & ME!!

The Hatred of Physical touch

Darkness creeps in 
I lie in the bed with a pounding heart 
Listening alert for your footsteps 
Praying that tonight should not be as bad 
As last night 
And the night before 
And the night before 
I can hear you coming near the room 
My heart pounds as it was a thunderstorm 
I hold my breath as if even the simple act 
as breathing could give it away 
I pretend to be sleeping 
And say to myself that everything will be OK 
I re-experience the challenging feeling of 
Being trapped 
And as I was being chocked 
And then you are there next to me 
I can feel your breath 
And I hate this closeness 
I close my eyes even tighter 
This time not because I want to pretend 
But just in a hope that things would just blacken out 
The way my eyes do 
You pull away my clothes 
Your hands and lips are on me 
Animal-like 
I close my eyes so hard 
That all the tears are stopped 
I close my fist so tight 
That my fingernails hurt my palm 
Before they break 
This is what usually happens 
At other times I just feel I can’t take it any longer 
I just can’t take the physical closeness of you 
The intimacy 
No matter, 
How I close my eyes, tighten my fists, bite my lips – 
No matter what, 
There are times I just can’t take it 
And I will give away a loud scream 
Before trying to push you away 
You hit, you shout, you say the most horrible things 
And of course you are physically stronger than me 
So I lose the battle 
And I silent myself 
Just staring at the wall 
Imagining this is not me it is happening to 
Try my best not to let the tears roll 
I usually conquer on this 
But at times I lose this battle too 
And I would just let the tear roll, 
Silently 
A stabbing chest pain 
And I so often pray that 
my heart would just stop that same moment 
After you finish, 
you would insult and humiliate me in so many ways 
I so often hated my body afterwards 
that i felt like cutting it into thousand pieces 
But all what i could do instead was ripping papers into thousand pieces 
and punch my fist against the wall over and over again