Monday, December 21, 2009

Guess who sent off for their free proof copy of their 'novel' recently?? Yay!!
I wanted to have the very first rough draft published (not sold) for me only so that I have something physical showing that I can finish something if I really put my mind to it!

Here is the cover I made for it:


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[stock photo from here]

Before everyone gets all crazy - NO. I didn't make this to try to look like The Host. In fact, I had this idea in mind long before I even saw The Host on shelves. But, of course, that's how it will always be compared. Oh well. :) Plus, I only made this cover quickly so that I would actually have a cover for my book...I may not even get to use this later on if I do sell the final copy (due to copyright stuff). lol

But anyways, I get my own ISBN number and everything! I'm so excited by this I can't even put it into words. I'm such a nut.

I did decide today that if I get a lot of positive feedback from the people who are helping me edit...and maybe (after I finish all of the edits) a little larger audience...I may try to sell my book through Amazon. But, for now, we'll see how everything goes! :)


PS - I'm trying to work on some editing things for the story...so you may not see me for a while on here (but considering only three amazing people have subscribed to this blog, that shouldn't be a problem haha!), but I'll try to post excerpts every now and then when I can!

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Just Like a Bird...

So, I went for a walk today...in the rain...and the cold. I almost decided not to since I was just now getting better, but I did anyways. I'm so glad I did. I haven't been so inspired in quite a long time. I definitely love cold and rainy days...and now I remember why. :)

Anyways, here is an excerpt of a journal entry I wrote today after my walk.

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***Before I start, look over to your left at the playlist. Just click play. It should automatically play "Roslyn" by Bon Iver. It's a beautiful song...and what I listened to today on my walk. :)**

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[found here]


Went for a walk today and decided it was time for a change.

I saw an enormous bird soaring in the sky. It spread its large wings and leaped into the strong, cold, stormy wind. There were no second thoughts, no hesitancy; just pure faith that the air would lift his body into the foggy sky.

I closed my eyes and imagined what it must felt like, to let the air direct my movements. To float gracefully; a dance with the moaning wind. To let something, much bigger than yourself, have complete control. 

How tempted I was, to spread my arms out and be lifted from the ground!

Oh, Icarus, you were lucky to be able to fly through the air and escape...even if only for a moment.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Prologue

I kind of thought that instead of boring you to death with more character descriptions, that I would bore you to death share the first excerpt from my story! I'm kind of being a cheater...because I'm only going to post the prologue, lol. But if for some reason you'd like to read more, then I'll be happy to share more!

I have to forewarn everyone everyone who reads this that it is riddled with grammatical errors, I totally understand. But this is just the first rough draft...and there will be many more to come, I'm sure! Next month is the editing process, though!

I'm really nervous about sharing this because I've never really shared a story story before. Only poetry and such. And I don't see myself as an 'author'...just someone who really enjoys to write. Nothing fancy. I'm not expecting to get published or make money off of it. However...if it were to get published HOW COOL WOULD THAT BE?! haha

Ok, I'm digressing...here it is:
PS - the paragraphs are all out of whack on here (thanks, Blogger), so bear with it being non-indented. :)

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Prologue

I felt a tingling at my chest. The jewel around my neck began to glow; something I had never seen before. I was surprised how much strength I could feel in my limbs. I couldn’t stop moving. I knew what had to be done, and I didn’t have much time.

It was too dark for my eyes to adjust, so seeing the path below me was not an option. Still, I was able to gracefully navigate through the dark forest. I had no idea where I was going or what I was looking for, but I knew that I would find it soon enough.

I was finally felt safe enough to stop. I bent my body forward, my hands on my knees, sucking in as much air as I could so I could catch my breath. The crisp, cool air was delicious.

I stopped breathing. I was still unable to see, but I could feel a presence. It didn’t feel like what I was running from a moment before. Instead of fear, I felt a calm that I’ve never felt before. For some strange reason, I knew I was safe. But I felt that there was something more to this presence. I never wanted it to leave, and I was certain I could never truly live again without it. I took a step ahead to reach for whoever was there with me. I began to lose my footing and realized I was standing at the edge of cliff. How far down the ground was below this was unknown. I couldn’t keep my balance, and I began to fall.

I felt myself stop, but I wasn’t on the ground. It was almost as if I was floating in mid-air. That’s when I saw the light. It was blinding, but the calmness was stronger than ever. I closed my eyes and let it all sink into every pore of my skin. I felt myself begin to relax, and I felt a drowsiness take over…

Friday, October 30, 2009

Character Survey: Emma Gregor (Main Character)

Ok...here's in the first Character survey of the Main Character of my story. Some of these answers may or may not make a lot of sense to you (or may be repeated answers to be quite honest). I had to delete some pieces from the original survey because I didn't want to give away too much of the story yet! 


AND - I'd love for you to ask me some questions about the character! Think of things that are random and/or something you would ask a real-life person. I want to flesh out these characters as much as possible...but I'm terrible of thinking of things! 

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*Name: Emma Gregor
*Age: 17
*Nationality: White; American
*Hometown: Smalltown, Michigan
*Current Residence: Smalltown, North Carolina
*Occupation: None at the moment
*Talents/Skills: Tennis, volleyball (played in HS in MI)...not much else. Not motivated to try other things at the moment
*Siblings: None
*Grandparents (Describe relationship): Both sets from NC. Father's side died years ago, mother's side still resides in NC...but currently on a road trip across the states. Emma has never really met her grandparents.
*Significant others: None at the moment
*Relationship skills: Can become quite sociable if have to, but since the death of her father has trouble making new friends or opening up. Does try to push her grief to the back of her mind because she feels she cannot express her grief to anyone. Once she makes friends with Anna, Ethan and their group, will become more open to them...but still not really to anyone else.
*Height: 5'4"
*Weight: 120lbs
*Race: White
*Eye Color: Green
*Hair Color: Brunette
*Glasses/contacts? No
*Skin color: Not pale, but not tan - a light tan?
*Shape of face: heart-shaped
*Distinguishing features:
*How do they dress? Emma dresses more for comfort...but still remains 'stylish'.

*Mannerisms: Quiet, reserved, realist, almost shy, cynical
*Habits (smoking, drinking, etc): none
*Health: In good health. Doesn't really exercise...but does eat pretty healthy for a teenager
*Hobbies: None at the moment
*Favorite sayings: None
*Speech patterns: N/A
*Disabilities: None
*Style (elegant, shaggy, etc): Comfortable but 'in-style'
*Greatest flaw: Not believing in herself
*Best quality: Very loyal
*Educational background: Just your average education.
*Intelligence level: Not a genius, but certainly not dumb. Tries to learn in anyway she can...and slightly above average intellectually
*Any mental illness? None
*Learning experiences: Since her father's death, she has learned the value of life and the past and to not take either for granted. She will also learn the value of believing in yourself and others.
*How does the character see themself? As your average, everyday teenager. Doesn't really believe she is special in anyway
*How does the character believe they are perceived by others? The same
*How self-confident is the character? She isn't very self-conscious...but still doesn't feel she is "special"
*Does the character seem ruled by emotion, logic, or some combination? Both: she listens to both her head and her heart
*Weaknesses: Cynical, reserved, not believing in herself, not opening up to others
*Strengths: Loyal, honest, physically healthy, can stand up for what she believes in if pushed too far
*How does character deal with anger?: By bottling it up or letting it go.
*With sadness? Bottling up, will not show sadness to anyone - will express it alone by crying (if frustrated)
*With conflict? Tries to avoid conflict at all costs, but will stand up for herself if needed
*With change? Usually does not effect, or she tries to not let it effect her. she sees change as something that happens in life. Big changes, however, takes her a little longer to deal with (by just...'dealing')
*With loss? Tries to put it in the back of her mind. Will not think about it unless brought out in the open by something or someone else. If it becomes too much to deal with she will leave the situation if possible. If not possible...then it is a strong possibility that she might break down.
*What does the charater want out of life? She is unsure at the moment. She is still trying to find herself and what she wants at the moment.
*What would the character like to change in their life? She is unsure. She knows she wants something, but unsure of what it is. It is possible that the change she wants is to feel like she belongs somewhere...and that there is more to life than just being "average"
*What motivates this character? The thought of her father...who always told her that there is always something more to life than this...but you have to find it first
*What frightens this character? Something that goes against her logic...people or situations that in her gut doesn't feel right.
*What makes this character happy? Unknown to her, but she enjoys human interaction (which she needs at the moment) and to feel like she belongs somewhere
*Is this character generous or stingy? She is more generous...but will not be taken advantage of
*Is the character generally rude or polite? She may come off as rude occasionally (because of her reserved nature)...but is a very polite person
*Does the character believe in God? She is unsure. She wants to believe in God or a higher power
*What are the character's spiritual beliefs? Unsure
*Is religion or spirituality part of this character's life? Not majorly
*Character's role in novel: Main character and narrator
*Scene where character first appears: Very beginning
*Relationships with other characters:
-Anna: one of her first friends at school
-Ethan: one of her first friends at school
-Elizabeth Gregor: her mother, not much of a relationship since her father died. her mother slowly begins to live her own life selfishly and doesn't think to ask Emma how she is dealing...which leads Emma to rely on only her friends and the memory of her father.
-Brent: antagonist, seems to help push her farther into her journey by making her angry or afraid
-Claire: Anna and Ethan's mother and Elizabeth's best friend from HS.
-Wayne Gregor: her father, through Emma's memories of him she will better understand who she is, what she is becoming, and her importance and role in life. She will also understand the value of perserving life and the value of friends.
*How is the character different at the end than then the beginning of the novel? She learns who she is, her importance and she understands her father more than she did before


*Character's full name: Emma Regina Gregor
*Reason or meaning of name: Latin term meaning 'Universal'
*Nickname: Em
*Reason for Nickname: shortened version seems to give more realism to conversation between friends/teenagers
*Birthdate: October 23, 1992
*How old does she appear: 15-18
*Body build: athletic, petite, small frame
*Type of hair: soft, shiny
*Character's typical hairstyle: either down and straight (deep side part) or up in a ponytail
*Favorite color: green, white, blue
*Favorite music: doesn't listen to music religiously...can listen to a variety of music.
*Least favorite music: rap, metal, country
*Food: Chicken, salad, or just a normal pizza
*Expletives: Doesn't curse much...but if she does it they are on the 'rated PG' scale
*Mode of transportation: 2007 Black Honda Civic
*Daredevil or cautious? Usually more cautious...will eventually have to learn to be more daring
*Same when alone? Yes. She is a very real and honest person
*How does the character spend a rainy day? Either sleep or do something on her laptop
*Type of childhood: Your typical, everyday, good childhood. Parents weren't rich but could provide. Stayed in their child's life, made sure she had what she needed.
*Most important childhood event that still affects him/her: Her father's stories

*Mother: Elizabeth
*Relationship with her: used to be close...but since father's death they have begun to deal with things on their own
*Father: Wayne
*Relationship with him: none, father is dead. used to be very close with him when he was alive
*Extended family: Not really mentioned much
*Close? Why or why not? Never really met them since they lived almost across the country from them her entire life
*Greatest fear: the unknown, or her life not meaning anything
*Worst thing that could happen to them? Losing another person who is close to them
*What single great event would most throw character's life in complete turmoil? Finding out something about herself that goes against logic
*Character is most at ease when: She is alone and she is in control
*Most ill at ease: Confrontation, something happens that goes against reality or against her beliefs
*Depressive or SAD (seasonal affective disorder)? No, goes through a somewhat 'normal' grieving process, but not depressed.
*Priorities: finish school and then she'll see from there
*Past failures they would be embarassed for anyone to know about: Not a failure, but that she was popular and social at her old HS
*Why? Shedoesn't want people to see her as that kind of person anymore.

*Greatest source of strength (whether un/known to character): You will find out!
*Greatest source of weakness: The fear of losing someone
*Soft-spot: Genuinely nice people
*Is this spot obvious to others? Not particularly
*If not, how does character hide it? Doesn't necessarily hide it...but doesn't let anyone know about it, either.
*Optimist or pessimist: Realist
*Introvert or extrovert: Intro
*Why: She is still trying to deal with her father's death
*Drives and motivations: None at the moment. Will soon be finding out what really happened to her father...and that will be her starting motivation
*Talents: None at the moment

*Good characteristics: honest, real, loyal
*Character flaws: low self-esteem, grieving for her father (but not really knowing that she is
*Biggest regret: Taking the life of her father for granted, not spending more time with him.
*Minor regrets: not living her life, taking advantage of the little things


SELF PERCEPTION:
*One word to describe yourself? Unkown
*One paragraph description of yourself?
I am not very special...just your average teenager. I go to school, I learn, I come home. I like nature, hiking...that's pretty much it. I'm closed off, I don't like to let anyone know my problems since I believe that they are my own and I should deal with them on my own. Maybe one day if I'm close enough to someone, I will let them in...but that's not going to happen for a while.

*Best physical characteristic? My feet. Strange, I know...but I seem to like them
*Worst physical characteristic? My knees. They are too knobby in my opinion
*Are these realistic assessments? yes...every girl thinks weird things about their body.

*How do others perceive you? Quiet, reserved. Maybe even stuck-up since I'm so quiet (which I'm not)
*Four things you would change about yourself?
1. I would know who I am
2. I would be more than just 'average'
3. I would open up more like I used to before my father died
4. I would be more daring
*Why? Well, why not?
*If change #1 was made, would you be happy as you think? Yes
*Has character cheated on bf? Yes (when popular)
*How does character relate to others? Doesn't really. She tries to be nice to everyone...but has a hard time opening up
*How is she perceived by...
-strangers: Quiet or even mean
-friends: A girl who needs to open up more
-lover: N/a
*What happens to change this perception? She finds her ability and is forced to learn more about herself and who she is
*What do friends/family like most about her? She is an honest girl
*Like least? That she is so closed off
*Immediate goals: To finish school
*Long range goals: To find herself and who she should be

NaNo WriMo!

Ok...so for a couple of days you will see a few posts with descriptions and such. Don't be alarmed...I'm not stalking anyone! :P




I'm actually making character description surveys for a story I'm going to be writing for NaNo WriMo lol.

What's NaNo WriMo, you ask?
Well, November is National Novel (NaNo) Writing Month (WriMo). During the next month, I have 30 days to write 50,000 words, or a novel's worth. I tried doing this last year but things got in the way and I wasn't even really able to start. So, I'm hoping this year I can do it (or at least get a really big chunk of it done!)!

Starting next month (aka in a few days) I'll be posting parts of the story I'm writing for NaNo...so keep on the lookout! :)

For now, though...these are going to be popping up for mainly myself (so I can look back on them for later), but will also help you understand the characters better throughout the story if you're reading it!

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Halloween is here!

Since I'm at work at the moment (shh! I just HAD to write this down! lol) and can't get to anything else at the moment...I thought I would share with you the quick poetry doodle I wrote for a Halloween scrap page I'm going to be doing tonight (and will showcase on Saturday!):

Trick-or-treaters come at night
for good candy or a fright.
Ghosts and goblins, witchs' hats,
zombies, mummies, and black cats.
Carve a pumpkin, make it glow.
Watch for old brooms flying low!
For it's the best time of the year...
Trick or Treat! Halloween is here!

I'll edit this post later with the scrap page if you guys want to see it :)
Ok, so I thought I would start a blog for all my writings and such to go.

Now, I'm not a great writer IMO, but I get these ideas in my head (I call them poetry or prose "doodles" that sometimes I just need to write down, lol But who knows...maybe one day my stuff will be found and I'll become a famous author! You never know! haha

But I'm starting to run out of room on my bookshelf for the notebooks I write in...so maybe this will be a better place to store everything! Not to mention this will be better dated...and someday maybe I'll print it out into a book or something to save! I don't know, just some ideas. :)

I feel like if I can open up and start sharing my writing to the outside world, maybe you guys can get a better look at the inside of my brain!

So...be prepared for some rough drafts full of poor grammar, run-on sentences, and little details!

Oh! And if you're reading my stuff...please FEEL FREE to critique as you wish. I would love some feedback on my writing...and any help with grammar, how to shorten my sentences, or just ideas on how to develop my plot and such would be fantastic!

Hope you all enjoy! :)