Marriage vows(for abhi)

On the day of our marriage,
I took the vows
by believing
it would last forever
I meant each word of it
I promised to love and care for you
till death do us apart
I promised to be there for you
for better
for worse
during sickness
during health
till death do us part
I promised to offer you
my faithfulness
my love
my strength
my support
my loyalty.
Till death do us apart
I was willing to
offer you everything I was
and everything I had
Till death do us apart
I believed that
we would spend the rest of our lives
by each other's side
waking up to your face and
falling asleep after your face be my last sight
I sincerely meant and believed that
throughout our lifetime together,
we would always be
the beloved and best friend
of each other
I was ready to sacrifice
I was ready to take risk
I did put you before myself
Cos I belived that is what
love, marriage and a good relationship
is about
I belived that
marriage
was not to prove society
was not for practical reasons
but a way of proving
true love and commitment
simply cos want to spend the life together
So far,
I did keep my promise
I did keep my vows
And I wanted it to be there
till death did as apart
However you made me live a lie
which i belived was a beutiful relationship
and happy life
Left me with a confusion
making me wonder
what is the deeper meaning of
relationships and marriages
I am still walking the jouney
searching for the truth